Never Have I Ever...

-been THIS happy in a relationship.
-had a vehicle give me as many troubles as my dang jeep.
-worked at a job as long as I have Homepro.
-wanted a massage as bad as right now.
-been "wasted"
-hated living in the South. (really, who could hate it down here?)
-missed playing soccer as much as now. Im ready to play again, dangit.
-read my bible as much as I should. ive gotta work on that.
-had a friend I was with constantly.
-thought I'd miss going to school.
-been skiing or snowboarding. I'd like to try.
-seen a scary movie. pretty much if a commercial is going to scare me, why bother?
-been so ready to have a CAREER
-played golf....but i really really want to!
-turned the volume up or down and it not be by 5. (ie 5,10,15...)
-not been nice to someone I just met.
-turned down a trip to the zoo.
-thought I'd be so obsessed with planning Mady's birthday parties. haha
-been able to swim well
-done something random just to have a blog post...oh wait, thats a lie :) haha

school...

Oh lord where do I start with this subject. I hate school yet I want to teach, crazy right?! Actually I don't hate school, I used to while I was in high school. I got burned out on college after two years. Well that one semester break after I had Miss Mady has turned into a TWO YEAR break. Its not so easy getting back in as I thought it would be. If its not one thing, its another. Im really really really looking forward to going back. However, its going to be really really hard. I have some student loans from school before, you know because I'm dumb and lost the majority of my scholarships. I cant reapply for loans, grants, scholarships, etc until those other loans are paid off...So thats about two grand down the drain. Literally. That $2,000 is going towards classes I slept through, good idea huh? Its tax time of the year which is perfect for paying that loan off....in the perfect world. See, I have this gem of a vehicle that wont pass emissions (which in sumner county you have to get done before you can renew your tags). Austin tried to fix it, well what we thought it was....yep, you guessed it, that wasnt it. So my car is still messed up, my tags are expired and I got pulled over for thus said expired tags. Now my tax money has to go to fix that FIRST. As long as it doesnt put off school, I dont mind. But the possibility of it pushing school again is killing me. I need want to go back, so bad. I want to be able to tell Mady one day that I still did something with my life after having her at such a young age. I'm ready for school to be done with. I'm ready for a real job, you know monday thru friday, set hours (kinda), being with her after school and on weekends. Not having to work horrible retail hours. I'm ready for a place of my own. My parents have been great and all, but I'm tired of living at home and having to depend on them (im sure they're tired of it too, haha). Im ready to actually be studious. I'm not going to be afraid to ask for help with my math this time around, third time's the charm right? I want to be able to go to school everyday, and have a job, and see Mady and Austin loads on the meantime. Its going to be hard, I'm not going to like it, but all in all I'M READY!